While others have been going on about how amazing their summer was, well, here's mine. Touche!

Summer twenty-twelve. I must say, I spent it in the most unusual way.

While others have been hopping around beaches and globe-trotting, I have been going to two places only, UP and Krus na Ligas. I haven't been anywhere beyond the gates of UP, literally. While others have been trying  mouth-watering delicacies, I have been inhaling toxic chemicals everyday. While others have been going out with old friends after a long time, I have been meeting no one, except for my adviser's research assistant, which isn't really a bad thing. While others have been getting a tan under the sun, I had my left hand peeling its skin off because of the several times it was doused with chemicals. While others sleep until noon, I wake up at 7am to get to lab, and inhale some more toxic stuff. While others have been horsing around all summer, I was responsible for two spills inside the laboratory (maybe because I was horsing around? Maybe.). I could go on, because I am bitter. Haha.

This is my "sunburn." Courtesy of TFA (trifluoroacetic acid).
Try looking it up, what harm it does to a person. 

But it wasn't all bad. My brothers got to treat me on separate occasions. Now, that was awesooo~me. Hooray for free stuff! Hooray for brothers who have a lot of $$$, and nothing to spend on (kidding.) And I got to meet really cool friends at the lab (Ate Loida, Kuya Larry, Sharine, Denden!). I still get to watch my favorite shows, so summer wasn't all that bad.

I couldn't go out with friends because I got tied up with my beloved thesis. I missed out Kay's birthday bash (Haymsosorreh), I'd always go home late, then wake up early the next day. Whew. I even had Aira, Karina, and Paul wait until almost midnight because I couldn't leave the lab until I was finished with the experiment. No wait; technically, they waited on their own, sooo~ my hands are clean. Hahaha. Salamaaaat.

I finished the experiment + draft last Friday, so for the first time in many weeks, I really had nothing to do (okay, I was procrastinating with my prob sets, but eh. :P) The minute I passed my draft, I went to Trinoma, waited for almost 2 hours, standing and being squeezed by this mad lot trying to get to the front to see........ ALLISON! :D Seriously, 3 feet away from her. She's really gorgeous!

Last night was one of the fondest times I've had. :) Some Batch '06 went on a night out. It wasn't intended to be a Batch 06 thing. Just that, everybody who went there was, yep, Batch 06. So yey! :D Amazing night. Juicy stuff. Juicy stuff. :P I seriously missed being with these people. They're all so busy being grown-ups (Gawd, Badz went on how he wanted to quit his job), so times like these are rare. But that makes it all the more special (UH-HUH.) How many times have we clinked our drinks last night? Because here's one more. Cheers, to crazy moments like these, and to the next time we get to do this again, there'd be more of us, and fun-ner! :) Hoorah!

Booze or no booze, we're always like that.

I just realized. There is not a picture of all of us! Ugh. Next time. Next time. :) Karina and Jaybie, you are loved! :D

Of friends and notes

Last April 3, a very good friend of mine had her 2_th birthday. I won't disclose the age, I might end up in a dump or something. As she was on the other side of the world, and I'm not good on giving gifts, I wrote her a birthday note instead, and seemingly, the only thing I can give to anyone. Oh yes, poor me. 

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Of thank you's slash birthday messages :)

Remember the heart wrenching, tear-jerking message I was going to write for you last New Year's Eve that never came? Well, I am writing this note with the intention to make you bawl your eyes out. If this note fails to do so, then consider this as a simple (albeit fail) birthday message. :D 

I don't have my own site to write out my thoughts or share pictures, so I'll just borrow this convenient app in this convenient Facebook. :) Forgive the inconsistent flow, I have not done this in years, so whatever writing skills I had, it's all so rusty now.

So you're there, and I'm here. I really can't remember the last time I saw you before you left. You just sent a text saying you're boarding for LA (or Hawaii? Haha) in 30 minutes. In a way, it's all good. I suck at goodbyes apparently, and if we were to meet one last time, things may turn ugly (or I may turn ugly. Haha). That's a maybe. :D I appreciate that you took the time to send me that message.

It's your birthday! Well, it's ending here. Is it already your day on your side? HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I know I said I'd intentionally forget your birthday since you unintentionally forgot mine, but eh. I couldn't do that. :) But you do owe me a treat of Korean barbecue when you come back! Haha. My tummy awaits. I won't be giving you a testimonial, because I'm sure you've already had one too many. It's cliche, but maybe a few thank you's on why you've made such a huge impact in my life?

Thank you for the times you let me use your PC (kay diri pa uso an laptop hadto. Haha) to the brink of exhaustion/damage. For the little treats that saved me from starvation because I was too lazy to go out and buy a meal. For cleaning my side of the room when we were roommates (I tried to keep the mess on my side, if that's any compensation. Haha). For the easy-going conversations on just about anything and anyone. For being the go-to person when I'm in need of clothes, make-up and whatnot. For the times you experiment on my hair. For being non-judgmental when you know I haven't taken a bath that day (!!!). Oh! For that birthday surprise you got me on my 18th birthday! That was fun. My roommate was much more surprised when you guys came barging in. And I've stressed this enough, stop putting candles on top of the cake, the wax falls on it. Eck. :)) 

On a more serious note, thank for being there when I've had my share of turbulent times. Thank you for crying with me one time in first year even when I wasn't telling you what was wrong and I just kept sobbing. Thank you for putting up with me during the times  I was crying and you know this time what was wrong but didn't ask. I know you have a knack of not saying what's on your mind when you think your friendship with that person would be put to risk, but I'll tell you right now, you won't have that kind of problem with me. :)

For the funny anecdotes, and the unfortunate turn of events on what could have been your potential love of your life (or future ex. Haha), thank you for sharing them with me. For crying in front of us when you thought you were about to flunk Math 17, thank you. Because I felt that the start of this awesome bond between us was our mishaps with our own lives that we decided to share to each other. In short, salamat at pareho tayong tanga sa mga bagay-bagay (i.e pag-ibig). :)))

Remember how I complained that we didn't have pictures of DSLR quality? Well, ta-dah! It's not as fabulous (I look constipated. HAHAHA), but hey, at least we have one. :)))

Mabusag tak irok. Maupay nala. HAHA

You're given a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to start anew, don't mess up this time. :) But even if you do, I'll always be your beytch, and ready to welcome you once you get back home (you'll see me at the airport with a welcome sign). There are some things that never change, our friendship is one of them. :) Know that you are sorely missed. I love you. Happy birthday! :* mwahmwahtsuptsupslurpslurp!

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Then her reply, which made me close to tears myself. I am so happy I got to be your friend Beytch. :) I am not envious of people having someone to call a best friend. Coz I got you, and with this kind of friendship, and I got nothing else to ask for. :) I shall post your reply here, because we're both cheesy like that. :)))

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I have come to conclude that a fulfillment of a birthday lies on having someone make you cry. :"> I feel that you succeeded in doing that with words...at 12:37pm Pacific Time on the 3rd of april. hehehe. i felt a tear or two run down! dire ak makadrama hn bongga ky my parents were on the next table. kahiyuh. haha. :(( :)) 

This note just makes me feel certain that we're at wavelength with each other with our way with words. i feel so good that i only have one witty writer friend as you, and your writing's all mine! muwahaha! seriously, i hate competition. you know how to pull my strings, you know where the strings are to begin with. :"> 

i feel so appreciated deep inside that i know only you could have nailed them in specific words. hoho. the special highlights you know about my life were the ones i feel were of impact too. you know bits of everything in my life and you know them just enough to know without overdoing one phase ya know. 

"For the funny anecdotes, and the unfortunate turn of events on what could have been your potential love of your life (or future ex. Haha),..."--->HAHAHA. i think we have our own funny anecdotes at one stage of our life. good thing when i had it you were the "enlightened man" , and when you had it i was that one. what would the world have been if we were broken at the same time huh? im just glad we get to laugh 'bout it togetha now 

"Because I felt that the start of this awesome bond between us was our mishaps with our own lives that we decided to share to each other." :((((((((((((((( shet. truelaloo 

Nevertheless, thankyou for the understanding, for saying the right things, for saying the right things at the right time with the right words. you will be my one and only beytch and i shall be yours! >:D< HUUUG!

lol at the airport scene :)) yeauh, i won't mess up :> or maybe ill mess up more! hoho. nevertheless i know you're always there. hihi. #cheeesssyy. keibye :))

P.S. gasi ko ba DSLR pic ini, hain na an high res copy?!!! gimme link! hahaha 

alabshuuu beytch 

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I must have done something good in my past life to be rewarded like this. :D Thank you soulmate! :*

So yesterday was Mothers' Day?

In lieu of Mothers' Day (or not, my brother probably just wants dinner, and he's somewhat required to take me with him. Either way. Hahaha), Kuya Aki, Ate Mavic and I had dinner at Bonchon Chicken at SM North Annex. And what do you know, they're also celebrating Mothers' Day! (I hope you caught my tone on this one, I like to have my daily dose of sarcasm in whatever way.)

As soon as I sat down (I was late, Kuya and Ate already finished their first serving), some lady said some gibberish; the only thing I heard was they were going to take a picture of us, and they're going to give freebies courtesy of Bonchon. A picture, and freebies... I got no qualms with that! Haha. The freebie bag contained a StarStudio magazine (with Kim Chiu and Xian Lim on the cover, the former acting all so giddy. Ugh, I cringe), 2 Bonchon fans, to name a few. 

Yes, pun intended.

After 2 days of morale-damaging simulation exams, which almost literally dried up my brain, this one was a fun treat. Shout out to Dakila Yee and Ate Mavic! :) Thank yooooou! Yey! Oh, 5 minutes after our picture was taken, we got our hard copy, with a paper frame! That fast. Hopefully they'd upload it on their Facebook page soon...

Because I got the lousiest camera phone ever.

Mama, Happy Mothers' Day! :D

I didn't take a photo of the actual chicken because I just gobbled it all up the minute I arrived. Haha.

So today's Mothers' Day?

To my mother, 




I haven't been the best daughter for you despite the sacrifices you've made for me, for us. I know you've been praying a lot for me to get through my situation now, and for the world to treat me well, even just this once. I've answered back at you, I've thrown tantrums, I've taken advantage and betrayed your trust. Every time, I feel like I've disappointed you. I haven't said this to anyone, but these days I can't look at you anymore without thinking that I'm more of a burden to you than someone you could be proud of. But I think I deserve it, so I still keep looking at you, and these thoughts creep into my head without fail. It sucks. I hate it. But I deserve it. But you, you don't deserve all those, you never did. I've apologized countless times that they don't seem to be sincere anymore. But I truly am sorry. 


I'm tired of disappointing you. I'm tired of making you cry. 


So it ends here, now. 22 years of me is going to stand on her own now. And yes, make you proud at last. So I need you to take care of yourself more, as I need you to live longer, so you could be proud of me longer. That day will come when you can happily brag me to your friends and just be proud of me. It won't be in the near future, though. That's why you need to be healthy until then. I'm saying this because we're both not getting any younger, and I'm not there to take care of you. So let's take care of ourselves, and live long.


I don't know if you'll be able to read this. But if fate leads you here, then well and good. :) 


I love you. It doesn't take a day like Mothers' Day for me to say this. But saying it almost everyday doesn't make it any more untrue. 


I love you. And I love you. :)

Awakening

After a long hiatus, hello blog!


I have not written a 'decent' entry since December 2009, back when Multiply was at its peak. I did not start writing again because of a change of attitude. The rants are still be present, now more than ever, what with me juggling my thesis and the review for boards (which, by the way, I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to be able to take). Maybe I just wanted a new environment, where my complaints can grow and flourish, and ultimately, I'd stop writing again. Well life is a cycle, like ANTM (Oh my gawd, that was a terrible joke.).


According to mypersonality.info, my MBTI personality type is ISFP, or "The Artist" (insert picture of a painter with paint splattered all over his/her apron). I feel the 'artist' in me has been cooped up for too long; hence the creation of this blog as the channel for my creative juices, or the lack of, to flow unto. 


So there, the first entry is almost done. Oh! The blog title is a failed attempt to sound literate and deep. And I just realized, all the while, Thursday has been unconsciously related to my, uhh, matters of the heart. Haha. 


If you are to spy on me, go ahead. :)